John 18: 25 – 27
“Meanwhile, Simon Peter was still standing there warming himself. So they asked him, “You aren’t one of his disciples too, are you?”
He denied it, saying, “I am not.”
One of the high priest’s servants, a relative of the man whose ear Peter had cut off, challenged him, “Didn’t I see you with him in the garden?” Again Peter denied it, and at that moment a rooster began to crow.”
I remember as a child hearing the story of Peter’s denials of Christ and self-righteously thinking that I would never have denied Jesus. As an adult I am keenly aware of the daily reality of my denials.
I deny when I make a decision for my own convenience over care for the creation.
I deny when I choose my own comfort over provision for one in need.
I deny when I retreat from another’s suffering.
I deny when I remain silent because the risk of speaking up feels too great.
Holy Thursday – a day of reflection. Jesus praying in the garden, feeling the depth of aloneness, longing for another way, choosing submission. Jesus being questioned, slapped, transferred, interrogated, mocked, beaten, staggering under the weight of carrying a cross. Disciples scattering, terrified, denying.
Today I sit in silence. I invite the rooster to crow, alerting me to where fear has taken control. I re-collect my child-like zeal. And I re-engage in the power of grace.
What denials might you need to confront?
How will you find strength through grace?
We confess our proclivity to disengage when our fear disorients us. Enlarge our capacity to receive your grace in deeply energizing waves. Amen.