Risking Disorder to Glimpse the Kingdom

I was invited to post a blog over at the Evolving Church: Kingdom Economy site. It went up quicker than I thought – so I’m a bit behind – but thought I’d share it here too. I’d encourage you to check out the other posts over at Evolving Church and if you’re in the Ontario area consider registering for this conference. I taught a workshop at it last year – and it is a fantastic learning experience.

It is interesting to me that the economy of the Kingdom is described as being about ordering things. It would seem to me that the necessary disordering of things is the only shot we have of breaking through our haze and glimpsing the way of the Kingdom.

One of the postures that Tim Keel speaks of in his book, “Intuitive Leadership” is the movement from control to chaos. Now, I thought that I liked change and that I had a pretty good threshold for chaos and the creativity that could emerge from such times of disruption. What I didn’t fully realize was that what I really liked was controlled chaos – particularly when I was in the driver’s seat.

In the last number of years, in my work with those marginalized from the heterosexual mainstream, I have experienced a disruption of my assumptions and certainties that was threatening and uncomfortable. I consistently felt God pulling me out of the driver’s seat and thrusting me into places of tension that I could not find a quick or easy resolution to. And while the whisper of accusation was readily present to suggest that I’d somehow slipped down the relativistic slope, or that the way I was questioning and thinking would inevitably wound and fracture the very Jesus-community that I loved, or that God himself was shaking his head sadly at the conundrum I’d created for myself, at a deep and audacious place within my spirit came the nudge to press into these questions because they somehow “smelled a lot like Jesus”.

The questions I was asking about how to relate and engage with my gay, lesbian, bi-sexual, transgendered, queer or intersexed neighbours seem to me to be at the heart of our search for a Kingdom economy. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t think they eclips